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Sue Me
Sunday, 11 January 2004
Sigh.

Current Mood: Tired
Current Music: If Forever's Not Enough by Sarah Geronimo (saw her singing on tv last night)

Somewhat depressed and tired of the way my life is going. Tired of how I say that what other people say don't affect me, when in fact, they do...much to the point that I cease to do what I'm currently doing because of what was said. Much to the point that I cease to feel what I was so convinced I actually felt because of what was said.

And now...look what happened.

Maybe I should just give up on this entirely. I don't know.

Ironic and sad, though, is that it wouldn't make sense to give up entirely right now...not when I'm almost there. Not when I'm almost at the point of reaching what I intended to reach, and attaining my goal. Is this what I'm going to do every single time someone tells me something that serves to dishearten me?

I'm not going to give up.

I'm not going to give that person the satisfaction that whatever she said and did to me made me give up.

I will do this...and I'm going to try not to fail this time.

I've succeeded plenty of times, and I will do so again.

Of course, I've also failed a lot of times...but...not now.

Not this time.


Current Mood: Determined
Current Music: Guadosalam Theme (yeah, yeah, I'm obsessed with FFX-2. Only because I can't figure out the title to that Fatal Frame II theme song)

Posted by apple-chan at 7:10 AM WST

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